Leaving.

I wrote this months ago and never posted it...

In the last post I lied... I lied because it's what I wanted to believe, it's what I wished to be true... But in reality things are worse then ever...

He's uncontrollable... Violent, hateful, angry, nasty... A monster... 

I can't do this anymore... I can't live like this anymore and it would be wrong of anyone be it a doctor, a family member or a friend to expect me to! 

I shouldn't be truly fearful for my safety in my own home anytime he gets a little pissed... 

It's been SEVEN years since the original injury... SEVEN!!!! You'd think at some point in those 7 years some friggin dr would have found SOMETHING that works to control this monster!

I don't want this for me or the dogs or cat anymore... We all deserve better... We all deserve to feel safe and loved.

I did all I can for him, this is the end of the line.