I never want to go back to feeling like that.
I can't lie I miss Josh... But not the Josh I talk about in this blog, the Josh I married... I miss the way his eyes would light up when he laughed, I miss his jokes, I miss his smile, I miss the smell of his skin, I miss the way he'd sip juice boxes and the way he'd make me laugh til I peed myself... I miss the man I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with...
I love my fiancé and I truly am happy with him but that doesn't stop the hurt I feel...