Sunday, September 9, 2012

Deployment #1 (Jan 07- April 08)

Josh was barely 20 when he left on this tour. Old enough to carry a gun, go to war and possibly die for his country but not old enough to buy a beer in a bar... Am I the only one who sees something wrong with that?

This blog is gonna be easy... I'm just gonna copy/paste a few of my blogs from myspace from that time into it and then let Josh tell his story of the important parts of the deployment...

BTW I am well aware I was a babbling psychopath during the deployment hehehe :D

Sherie E (3/10/2008 12:53:59 PM): Where have you been?!
Josh (3/10/2008 12:54:07 PM): afghanistan

Sherie E (3/10/2008 1:00:52 PM): and stupidity should HURT
Josh (3/10/2008 1:01:05 PM): as soon as we figure out a humane way to tag them this wont be an issue anymore
Sherie E (3/10/2008 1:01:48 PM): I had a woman last night that I just STARED at and finally was like "your joking right... you didn't seriously call 911 cuz of a frog on your front steps..."'
Josh (3/10/2008 1:01:48 PM): furthermore i think the really stupid ones should be hunted for sport
Sherie E (3/10/2008 1:01:54 PM): HELL YES
Sherie E (3/10/2008 1:02:03 PM): now THATS a sport I would partake in!
Josh (3/10/2008 1:02:11 PM): who wouldn't?
Josh (3/10/2008 1:02:35 PM): 20 bucks a head, i could make myself a nice little profit

Sherie E (3/10/2008 1:03:07 PM): They wanted the big red taxi with the lights to drive them to the hospital
Josh (3/10/2008 1:04:18 PM): you should start asking for tips
Josh (3/10/2008 1:04:29 PM): i would, gratuities are accepted
Sherie E (3/10/2008 1:04:38 PM): Thats a GREAT idea lol
Josh (3/10/2008 1:05:05 PM): and if they refuse, drop them off on the outer edge of the hospital parking lot

Sherie E (3/17/2008 11:20:06 AM): And don't even THINK about leavin' me for that hot ass Camel that chills outside your room lol
Josh (3/17/2008 11:20:08 AM): i'd always imagined it being a little harder to ask that question
Josh (3/17/2008 11:20:24 AM): dont sweat it, the camel left me months ago
Josh (3/17/2008 11:21:02 AM): it just wasnt working between us
Josh (3/17/2008 11:21:36 AM): im catholic, she was of a different species
Sherie E (3/17/2008 11:21:53 AM): Yeah we catholics tend to frown on that
Sherie E (3/17/2008 11:21:55 AM): Oh and gays
Sherie E (3/17/2008 11:21:57 AM): We hate them too
Josh (3/17/2008 11:22:22 AM): true
Josh (3/17/2008 11:22:32 AM): very true, especially irish catholics for some reason
Sherie E (3/17/2008 11:22:44 AM): RIGHT?!

Josh (3/26/2008 5:55:10 PM): i gotta say talking to you has so far been the best part of my day
Josh (3/26/2008 5:55:24 PM): even after i found out i was getting promoted
Sherie E (3/26/2008 5:55:36 PM):
Sherie E (3/26/2008 5:56:27 PM): OHOH when you get promoted next time do I get to pin ya!?
Josh (3/26/2008 5:56:43 PM): when i get sgt, absolutely
Sherie E (3/26/2008 5:57:34 PM): AWESOME!
Sherie E (3/26/2008 5:57:39 PM): THEN can we have sex?!
Josh (3/26/2008 5:57:55 PM): numerous times
Sherie E (3/26/2008 5:58:01 PM): WOOT!
Sherie E (3/26/2008 5:58:13 PM): So we get a pay raise AND sex all in one day!? BITCHING
Josh (3/26/2008 5:58:31 PM): thats my idea of a good day
Josh (3/26/2008 5:59:13 PM): a very good day

Sherie E (3/27/2008 12:03:52 PM): Its from where I broke it
Josh (3/27/2008 12:04:06 PM): ahhh
Josh (3/27/2008 12:04:11 PM): aspirin?
Sherie E (3/27/2008 12:04:26 PM): Ha fuck that shit I went for the good stuff
Sherie E (3/27/2008 12:04:31 PM): I <3 Vicaden
Josh (3/27/2008 12:04:36 PM): YES!!
Sherie E (3/27/2008 12:04:47 PM): Know what else I <3?
Josh (3/27/2008 12:04:56 PM): no, tell me
Josh (3/27/2008 12:05:12 PM): please?
Sherie E (3/27/2008 12:05:16 PM): YOU!
Josh (3/27/2008 12:05:43 PM): funny you should mention it because i <3 you too!

Sherie E (3/27/2008 12:07:06 PM): ya know in like 3 months we're gonan be able to wake up next to each other <3
Josh (3/27/2008 12:07:45 PM): that'll be super, mainly because now when i wake up either way i look is another dude

Sherie E (3/28/2008 1:23:15 PM): I'm gonna have someone at the airport take pix for us so we can have our first moments today on film <3
Josh (3/28/2008 1:23:39 PM): lol, i want copies
Sherie E (3/28/2008 1:24:08 PM): Um sweetie, we are gonna live together you tart
Sherie E (3/28/2008 1:24:09 PM): lol
Josh (3/28/2008 1:24:25 PM): smartass
Josh (3/28/2008 1:24:38 PM):
Sherie E (3/28/2008 1:24:39 PM): are ya sure YOUR not takin' the happy pills?

Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:25:30 AM): You make me so happy baby
Josh (3/30/2008 11:26:07 AM): actually, funny you should mention it, my team leader mentioned to me today that lately i seem happier
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:26:38 AM): Could it be your finally about to excape that shithole?
Josh (3/30/2008 11:26:59 AM): i think its because of what's waiting for me
Josh (3/30/2008 11:27:18 AM): i should say who's waiting for me
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:27:25 AM): I love you baby <3
Josh (3/30/2008 11:27:40 AM): i love you too!

Josh (3/30/2008 2:20:48 PM): there's the sexy little brunette i love so much!

Sherie E (3/30/2008 2:35:38 PM): baby... your my happily ever after <3
Josh (3/30/2008 2:36:33 PM): you my dear are proof positivethat dreams come true

Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:30:56 PM): I showed my cousin Amanda it and she was like "he looks like he's in jail..." and i was like "yeah well ask him and he'll tell ya he is..." lol
Josh (3/31/2008 2:31:10 PM): its kinda true
Josh (3/31/2008 2:31:24 PM): i cant leave and im surrounded by people with guns
Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:31:33 PM): And it smells bad and the food sucks
Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:31:38 PM): And you can't screw your fiancee
Josh (3/31/2008 2:31:51 PM): no conjugal visits
Josh (3/31/2008 2:32:04 PM): because god knows i would fly you over here in a heartbeat
Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:32:39 PM): Oh yes sweetie my dream honeymoon is your tent in Afgan
Josh (3/31/2008 2:32:57 PM): its not as bad as it sounds
Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:33:01 PM): Atleast in prison they give ya a tralior do to it in eheh
Josh (3/31/2008 2:33:19 PM): im sure we could find an empty office
Josh (3/31/2008 2:33:47 PM): hell, an occupied office, i'll do it on the commander's desk, i dont care
Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:33:52 PM): HELL YES!
Sherie E (3/31/2008 2:34:00 PM): I'm up for it!!!
Josh (3/31/2008 2:34:20 PM): lets do it! find a flight and i'll give you my card number

Josh (4/4/2008 12:22:08 PM): im still talking to_____actually                   Sherie E (4/4/2008 12:22:23 PM): I went on inviable *BECAUSE* of her lolol
Josh (4/4/2008 12:22:50 PM): lol, i know, i just havent been in a good argument in a while

Josh (4/4/2008 11:31:44 AM): lol, i had to go make sure mcculley didnt rat me out
Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:31:54 AM): For what?
Josh (4/4/2008 11:32:14 AM): smoking, even though i told her she needed to
Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:32:22 AM): Well she did
Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:32:27 AM): But I told you I'm not mad
Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:32:39 AM): We'll do it together <3
Josh (4/4/2008 11:32:50 AM): she's got my cigs anyway
Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:32:53 AM): HAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHAH
Josh (4/4/2008 11:33:03 AM): "save me from myself"
(THANKS Mcculley LOL)

Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:59:38 AM): GOD DAMNIT I hate my stupid fucking cellphone
Josh (4/4/2008 11:59:53 AM): lol
Josh (4/4/2008 12:00:11 PM): now now honey, getting mad at consumer electronis is not the answer

Josh (4/2/2008 9:47:00 AM): dont worry, we'll both be going crazy together
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:47:17 AM): Crazy people still have awesome sex right?
Josh (4/2/2008 9:47:36 AM): i hear its even better than the sex sane people have
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:47:39 AM): WOOT!

Josh (4/2/2008 9:55:12 AM): i love you so much baby
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:55:17 AM): I love you too
Josh (4/2/2008 9:55:44 AM): you look like you need to sleep desperately
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:55:58 AM): I have later and tommrow and the rest of my life
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:05 AM): lol
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:56:13 AM): But right now I have you <3
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:18 AM): you know what the amazing thing is
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:31 AM): you're still the most beautiful thing ive ever seen

Josh (4/2/2008 10:02:42 AM): alright, what about a salt water fish tank
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:02:51 AM): We can't afford it
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:02:56 AM): Your welcome to try thou LOL
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:03:03 AM): Those things are like retartedly expensive
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:03:26 AM): I wanted one when finding nemo came out cuz GOD DAMN I I WANTED TO FIND NEMO
Josh (4/2/2008 10:03:34 AM): lol
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:03:35 AM): Nemo woulda been $90

Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:40:13 PM): and is it a woman? I have issues with any guy but you being down there LOL
Josh (4/2/2008 1:40:16 PM): madigan army medical center
Josh (4/2/2008 1:41:01 PM): i think its a woman
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:41:15 PM): ok... either way your going with me LOL cuz I dispise the gyno
Josh (4/2/2008 1:41:22 PM): and i agree, I have problems with a guy being down there except me
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:42:09 PM): I was posta go like 2 months ago but had work an was like "Aw damn mom guess ya gotta cancel it boofuckinghoo lol"
Josh (4/2/2008 1:42:28 PM): oh darn
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:42:35 PM): ANY excuse I can find to *NOT* be put into sturrups is a good one
Josh (4/2/2008 1:42:48 PM): lol, it cant be that bad
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:43:01 PM): Ok babe, do you have ANY idea what they do
Josh (4/2/2008 1:43:10 PM): absolutely not
Josh (4/2/2008 1:43:19 PM): but dont ruin it for me, i wanna be surprised
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:43:27 PM): HAHA okkkkkk

Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:49:39 PM): DONT TOUCH
Josh (4/2/2008 1:49:45 PM): sorry
Josh (4/2/2008 1:49:53 PM): now it itches
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:49:54 PM): I love you soooo much hunny
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:49:56 PM): Yeah its gonna LOL
Sherie E (4/2/2008 1:50:11 PM): Thank GOD I'm the one carrying this child....
Josh (4/2/2008 1:50:15 PM): i love you too beautiful!
Josh (4/2/2008 1:50:26 PM): i would bitch non-stop!

Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:07:41 PM): We're gonna have a REALLY hot kid
Josh (4/2/2008 2:08:04 PM): yeah, god help the first boy that shows up to take her out on a date
Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:08:16 PM): Shall you be cleaning a gun?
Josh (4/2/2008 2:08:27 PM): several
Josh (4/2/2008 2:08:40 PM): with a half empty bottle of whiskey next to me
Josh (4/2/2008 2:08:51 PM): and a shovel
Josh (4/2/2008 2:08:57 PM): and a friend
Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:09:01 PM): hahahahah

Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:38:05 AM): She said the LEAST was a year and a half cuz of how long you were there and because your company has been there so long
Josh (3/30/2008 11:38:09 AM): no more third world shitholes for 24 months
Josh (3/30/2008 11:38:33 AM): i get to sleep in a bed...
Josh (3/30/2008 11:38:38 AM): with a girl!!!
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:38:49 AM): With your wife <3
Josh (3/30/2008 11:39:00 AM): SWEET!!!!
Josh (3/30/2008 11:39:15 AM): you just made my month

Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:39:30 AM): I picked out my dress
Josh (3/30/2008 11:39:39 AM): you did!?!
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:39:43 AM): Yupperzzzzzz
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:39:47 AM): But YOU CAN'T SEE ITTTTTTTT
Josh (3/30/2008 11:39:55 AM): damned
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:40:09 AM): Its bad luck
Josh (3/30/2008 11:40:12 AM): the suspense is killing me already
Josh (3/30/2008 11:40:39 AM): just for that you dont get to see my dress blues until the wedding
Josh (3/30/2008 11:40:58 AM): that BS i'll probably need your help putting them together
Josh (3/30/2008 11:41:22 AM): i cant pin things on straight to save my life
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:41:41 AM): LOL
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:41:56 AM): Its really pretty baby
Josh (3/30/2008 11:42:17 AM): nothing compared to the girl wearing it though
Sherie E (3/30/2008 11:42:23 AM): I love you <3
Josh (3/30/2008 11:42:37 AM): i love you too!!

Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:18:29 AM): So.. I talked about you with my parents some more...
Josh (4/5/2008 11:18:39 AM): and they said?
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:18:46 AM): They realized i'm going and they can't stop me
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:18:53 AM): Fuck I think it might kick me off again be warned
Josh (4/5/2008 11:18:59 AM): ok
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:19:19 AM): But yeah they said that and then tried to guilt trip me and I wals ike "not gonna work so shut up
Josh (4/5/2008 11:19:41 AM): guilt trip you?
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:19:51 AM): Yeah 'Your gonna kill your grandparents"
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:19:58 AM): "you'll never see your family again"
Josh (4/5/2008 11:20:17 AM): they act like you're gonna be held hostage
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:20:23 AM): I KNOW!!!
Josh (4/5/2008 11:20:42 AM): i'm your husband not your warden
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:21:06 AM): hehheheehhe ya sure I think I'd like the latter at night at least
Josh (4/5/2008 11:21:24 AM): hehehehehehe
Josh (4/5/2008 11:21:40 AM): ok, but only if you call me "warden"

Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:47:38 PM): Oh wait til I finally get up the nerve to take you down south for THAT reunion..
Josh (4/7/2008 3:47:47 PM): ouch
Josh (4/7/2008 3:47:52 PM): that'll be fun
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:48:00 PM): Thats a word for it
Josh (4/7/2008 3:48:03 PM): can i at least drink?
Josh (4/7/2008 3:48:16 PM): not like hammered drunk
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:48:25 PM): Oh no you must be hammered to deal with them
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:48:25 PM): lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:48:30 PM): lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:48:36 PM): that might back fire
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:48:46 PM): I've sat there and just been like Sweet Jesus tell me I'm adopted...
Josh (4/7/2008 3:48:53 PM): lol
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:49:16 PM): I remember one time driving up to the house and finding my cousin ONTOP of the house trying to shot a deer...
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:49:21 PM): *shoot
Josh (4/7/2008 3:49:40 PM): hell they sound like my kind of people
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:50:09 PM): I have aunts named Billie Ray, Effie Fay, Iris Murtal...
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:50:15 PM): And yes I spelt those right
Josh (4/7/2008 3:50:29 PM): AWESOME!!!!!
Josh (4/7/2008 3:50:47 PM): can we introduce me as "clem"
Josh (4/7/2008 3:51:03 PM): come on! it'll be fun
Josh (4/7/2008 3:51:21 PM): cletus jenkins!
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:51:30 PM): You'd fit right in sadly...
Josh (4/7/2008 3:51:40 PM): thats badass
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:51:48 PM): They do a pig roast
Josh (4/7/2008 3:52:03 PM): sweet
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:52:03 PM): And they are loud and rednecks
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:52:10 PM): and I thank god everytime we drive AWAY
Josh (4/7/2008 3:52:20 PM): like i said, my kind of people
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:52:28 PM): Well thats the ONE sid
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:52:30 PM): *side
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:52:32 PM): (Mom's side)
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:52:47 PM): My dad's side is all up here and they are strictly Italian Catholics
Josh (4/7/2008 3:52:49 PM): come on i could dress like a dukes of hazzard character (daisy)
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:53:10 PM): Fear them and never look my grandfather in the eye he sees that as a threat...
Josh (4/7/2008 3:53:27 PM): thats gonna be a problem
Josh (4/7/2008 3:53:37 PM): i was trained to look people in the eye!
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:53:42 PM): He's a Marine just be careful LOL
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:53:54 PM): I had to call him Sir till I turned 1q8
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:53:55 PM): *18
Josh (4/7/2008 3:54:04 PM): wow!
Josh (4/7/2008 3:54:21 PM): thats harsh
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:54:25 PM): Thats nothing
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:54:36 PM): He tied me to a chair once cuz I was slouching at dinner
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:55:00 PM): He is 79 years old and I can honestly say I'm truly terrified of him and he could kill me with one hand
Josh (4/7/2008 3:55:08 PM): im not judging, id considered tying you to a chair, but for entirely different reasons
Josh (4/7/2008 3:55:24 PM): that have nothing to do with posture
Josh (4/7/2008 3:55:42 PM): unless you consider horizontal a posture
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:56:02 PM): He told my parents if they just beat me more as I kid I woudln't have "Issues" now
Josh (4/7/2008 3:56:16 PM): yeah! genius idea!
Josh (4/7/2008 3:56:22 PM): that'll solve it!
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:56:46 PM): You might trip over my grandma thou...
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:56:53 PM): She's really cool and REALLY tiny lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:56:59 PM): im not bagging on your grandfather, but some people's logic disturbs me
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:57:10 PM): Oh no bag way we do ALL the time lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:57:28 PM): but you're family its different
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:57:34 PM): Your my family
Josh (4/7/2008 3:57:41 PM): i mean i will be but im still the new guy
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:57:48 PM): No your my husband <3
Josh (4/7/2008 3:58:02 PM): and you're my wife
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:58:18 PM): I love the sound of that
Josh (4/7/2008 3:58:24 PM): but to him i'm still the fuckin' new guy
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:58:31 PM): My grandpa hates everyone
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:58:35 PM): He will never like you
Josh (4/7/2008 3:58:39 PM): i know military minds, its how it works
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:58:56 PM): he doesn't like me, he doesn't like my brothers, (mainly cuz we're not "Pure-bloods
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:58:58 PM): )
Josh (4/7/2008 3:59:00 PM): lets say its because i'm irish!
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:59:11 PM): THATS WHY HE DOESNT LIKE ME! lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:59:29 PM): sweet!!!
Josh (4/7/2008 3:59:36 PM): we can be outcasts together!
Josh (4/7/2008 3:59:39 PM): hehehehe
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:59:59 PM): When you call I'll tell you how I blackmailed him thou hehehe
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:00:04 PM): its WAYYYY too much to type
Josh (4/7/2008 4:00:10 PM): lol
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:00:29 PM): No shit, everytime I go there he tells me how fat I'm getting
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:00:36 PM): I'm like wow thanks grandpa I love you too
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:00:50 PM): and my grandma sits there and shoves money in my pockets LOL
Josh (4/7/2008 4:00:58 PM): hehehehe
Josh (4/7/2008 4:01:04 PM): i must meet this woman
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:01:07 PM): She's awesome
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:01:17 PM): I go home and my dad's like "So I see you went to the BANK" lol
Josh (4/7/2008 4:01:26 PM): HAHAHAHAHA
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:01:41 PM): And then I have an aunt thats totally off her rocker and hands me $100 bills every time I see her
Josh (4/7/2008 4:01:43 PM): i'm in a betting mood
Josh (4/7/2008 4:01:53 PM): lets make a bet
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:01:55 PM): Ok
Josh (4/7/2008 4:02:25 PM): i will bet you whatever you want, that i can make your grandpa like me before i leave jersey
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:02:38 PM): I bet you'll think they like you LOL
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:02:53 PM): You think I'm kidding THEY ARE ITALIAN they like NOONE
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:02:54 PM): lol
Josh (4/7/2008 4:03:05 PM): i think i can do it
Josh (4/7/2008 4:03:16 PM): they will genuinely like me by the time we leave
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:03:26 PM): Um yeah about that I haven't told them yet
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:03:35 PM): I told my mom's parents cuz I'm not scared of them but not my dad's
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:03:36 PM): hehe
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:03:54 PM): SO your gonna go with me so when grandpa tries to backhand me (Which he will attempt) you can stop them
Josh (4/7/2008 4:04:02 PM): i'm not gonna have to have someone else start my car for the rest of my life am i?
Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:04:24 PM): Um well for a week or so I would..
Josh (4/7/2008 4:04:50 PM): i'll have bill check it for explosives daily

Josh (4/10/2008 10:34:14 AM): lol, did you tell your parents yet?
Sherie E (4/10/2008 10:34:17 AM): Yup
Josh (4/10/2008 10:34:33 AM): and they said?
Sherie E (4/10/2008 10:34:42 AM): Mom said "OMG OMG Your going to KILL me do you know that KILL ME!" and did her whole fake crying thing
Sherie E (4/10/2008 10:34:47 AM): and then locked herself in her room
Josh (4/10/2008 10:35:06 AM): what'd your dad do?
Sherie E (4/10/2008 10:35:12 AM): "Have fun"
Sherie E (4/10/2008 10:35:21 AM): and "your a psycho"
Sherie E (4/10/2008 10:35:22 AM):
Josh (4/10/2008 10:35:32 AM): wow
Josh (4/10/2008 10:35:48 AM): i expected to see a mushroom cloud or something
Sherie E (4/9/2008 11:26:22 AM): Oh yeah and I told your mom
Josh (4/9/2008 11:26:36 AM): that we are getting married?
Sherie E (4/9/2008 11:26:42 AM): No that there are pigs on the sun
Josh (4/9/2008 11:26:57 AM): wouldnt that make them bacon?

Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:44:48 AM): So I've been thinking
Josh (4/8/2008 9:45:09 AM): about?
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:45:36 AM): If that teacher says no, I'm gonna give him the finger and walk out
Josh (4/8/2008 9:45:58 AM): well, thats a pretty definitive way to go about it
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:46:51 AM): Oh and then I'm gonna call him a terrorist
Josh (4/8/2008 9:47:04 AM): holy shit!
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:47:11 AM): Well he IS
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:47:13 AM): dude
Josh (4/8/2008 9:47:18 AM): my thoughts exactly

Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:50:12 AM): Do you wanna see more pix of me when I was youngerrrrrr
Josh (4/8/2008 9:50:25 AM): sure!
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:52:41 AM): Thats from THAT sweet16 lol
Josh (4/8/2008 9:53:04 AM): just as beautiful today
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:53:37 AM): I was WAY skinner then
Josh (4/8/2008 9:54:31 AM): my original assessment stands
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:54:34 AM): Thats my family
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:54:39 AM): At Rawhide hehe
Josh (4/8/2008 9:54:42 AM): you today:
Josh (4/8/2008 9:54:47 AM): beautiful
Josh (4/8/2008 9:54:53 AM): you then:
Josh (4/8/2008 9:54:56 AM): beautiful
Sherie E (4/8/2008 9:55:00 AM): I love you
Josh (4/8/2008 9:55:03 AM): its kind of a pattern with you
Josh (4/8/2008 9:55:08 AM): i love you too

Sherie E (4/8/2008 11:55:29 AM): Did you talk to her?
Josh (4/8/2008 11:55:37 AM): i did!
Sherie E (4/8/2008 11:55:39 AM): And?!
Josh (4/8/2008 11:56:08 AM): i didnt tell her we were getting married... because im a huge pussy
Sherie E (4/8/2008 11:56:14 AM): HAHA
Sherie E (4/8/2008 11:56:17 AM): Ok as long as you know it

Sherie E (4/8/2008 12:13:18 PM): It made me a lil sad to change my name back LOL
Josh (4/8/2008 12:13:29 PM): lol, understandable
Sherie E (4/8/2008 12:13:36 PM): I like being your wife heh
Josh (4/8/2008 12:13:46 PM): i like being your husband
Sherie E (4/8/2008 12:14:36 PM):
Sherie E (4/8/2008 12:14:57 PM): How many more days til we can fall asleep together?
Josh (4/8/2008 12:15:11 PM): 15
Josh (4/8/2008 12:15:21 PM): two weeks baby
Sherie E (4/8/2008 12:15:28 PM): This is gonna be the LONGEST 2 weeks EVER
Josh (4/8/2008 12:15:39 PM): you're telling me!!!

Josh (4/8/2008 1:00:01 PM): for the record if you poke me with a sharp stick i'll poke you back
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:00:08 PM): Rawr
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:00:12 PM): That sounds hot heeh
Josh (4/8/2008 1:00:18 PM): its only fair!!!
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:00:27 PM): Well what happens when you poke the baby THRU me
Josh (4/8/2008 1:00:36 PM): hmmmm
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:00:36 PM): Do I get to poke you back or does she have to do it FOR Me lol
Josh (4/8/2008 1:00:54 PM): you can always take a vote between the two of you
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:01:41 PM): or we can BOTH poke you back
Josh (4/8/2008 1:01:57 PM): true

Josh (4/8/2008 1:04:36 PM): i already refer to you as my wife anyway
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:04:47 PM):
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:04:50 PM): To who?
Josh (4/8/2008 1:05:02 PM): everybody here
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:05:18 PM): heeheh I called you my husband to my mom yesterday and she almost choked on her soda
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:05:20 PM): it was funny
Josh (4/8/2008 1:05:37 PM): hahahahaha

Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:12:25 PM): I love you so much
Josh (4/8/2008 1:12:40 PM): i love you too baby
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:12:50 PM): Were getting MARRIEDDDDDDDDDDD
Josh (4/8/2008 1:13:16 PM): and you're going to be my wife
Josh (4/8/2008 1:13:26 PM): finally!!!
Josh (4/8/2008 1:13:38 PM): im freakin excited
Sherie E (4/8/2008 1:13:44 PM): ME TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Josh (4/8/2008 1:15:21 PM): soon baby

Josh (4/7/2008 12:40:00 PM): okay new rule
Sherie E (4/7/2008 12:40:11 PM): *Cars
Josh (4/7/2008 12:40:27 PM): you only drive my car in emergency situations or the event of armageddon
Josh (4/7/2008 12:41:01 PM): other than that, i'll drive

Josh (4/7/2008 12:43:34 PM): do you see what i have to deal with every day
Josh (4/7/2008 12:43:41 PM): he tried to lick me
Sherie E (4/7/2008 12:43:45 PM): DUDE
Sherie E (4/7/2008 12:43:47 PM): ONLY I LICK YOU!
Josh (4/7/2008 12:44:05 PM): thats what I said!!!

Josh (4/7/2008 1:05:51 PM): i love you too baby!!!
Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:05:59 PM): Know what else I love?
Josh (4/7/2008 1:06:28 PM): whats that
Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:06:31 PM): BLUE SHARPIES BABY! lol
Josh (4/7/2008 1:06:37 PM): hhehehehehehe
Josh (4/7/2008 1:06:44 PM): you know what i love?
Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:06:49 PM): what?
Josh (4/7/2008 1:07:18 PM): well theres this one jersey girl who i am just absolutely smitten with
Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:07:30 PM): HHEHEHHE I like word smitten LOL
Josh (4/7/2008 1:07:54 PM): im a walking episode of sesame street

Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:22:44 PM): "I'm a singing kangaroo and I'm from far awayyyyyyy I like to hophophop all dayyyyyyyyyyyy"
Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:22:45 PM): lol
Sherie E (4/7/2008 1:23:09 PM): LOL I was singing it and hopping yesterday
Josh (4/7/2008 1:23:12 PM): lol, please god dont start singing that on the way to washington

Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:43:20 PM): Every word outta that woman's mouth litterally PUSHES me one step closer to the airport lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:43:29 PM): lol
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:43:57 PM): I'm just trying to stay civil with her so we get the stuff for the house LOL
Josh (4/7/2008 3:44:22 PM): just think though, in a matter of DAYS we'll be curled up under *our* blanket

Josh (4/7/2008 3:45:33 PM): i know you probably wont listen but you need to get some sleep
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:45:47 PM): Yeah and you need to tell your mom your getting married
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:45:47 PM): lol
Josh (4/7/2008 3:46:02 PM): touch..e
Josh (4/7/2008 3:46:08 PM): nicely played
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:46:22 PM): If I'm gonna take your name I have to atleast know how to come back at someone heeh
Josh (4/7/2008 3:46:48 PM): true! sarcasm is high on the list of criteria for tucker women
Josh (4/7/2008 3:47:17 PM): it makes the reunions just that much more interesting for the menfolk

Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:54:36 PM): He tied me to a chair once cuz I was slouching at dinner
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:55:00 PM): He is 79 years old and I can honestly say I'm truly terrified of him and he could kill me with one hand
Josh (4/7/2008 3:55:08 PM): im not judging, id considered tying you to a chair, but for entirely different reasons
Josh (4/7/2008 3:55:24 PM): that have nothing to do with posture
Josh (4/7/2008 3:55:42 PM): unless you consider horizontal a posture
Sherie E (4/7/2008 3:56:02 PM): He told my parents if they just beat me more as I kid I woudln't have "Issues" now
Josh (4/7/2008 3:56:16 PM): yeah! genius idea!
Josh (4/7/2008 3:56:22 PM): that'll solve it!

Sherie E (4/7/2008 4:18:54 PM): My friend is pregnant (A girl from Ft Lewis) and she's like "I poke my baby to make it move" and I was like "Thats ok I have no doubt Josh will poke ours..."
Josh (4/7/2008 4:19:09 PM): incessantly

Sherie E (4/5/2008 9:21:07 AM): Ill lose my mind without you for 6 days
Josh (4/5/2008 9:21:20 AM): same here doll face
Josh (4/5/2008 9:21:33 AM): i'll get cranky
Josh (4/5/2008 9:21:37 AM): then i'll get angry
Josh (4/5/2008 9:21:45 AM): then i'll get sad
Sherie E (4/5/2008 9:21:47 AM): heehhehe
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:40:31 AM): OHOH!!! I forgot to tell you!!!
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:40:34 AM): I lost 5lb!!!!!
Josh (4/13/2008 11:40:58 AM): how are you losing so much weight?
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:41:07 AM): Crack.
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:41:09 AM): Lots of it.
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:41:13 AM):
Josh (4/13/2008 11:41:16 AM): i knew it
Josh (4/13/2008 11:41:25 AM): and you're not sharing
Josh (4/13/2008 11:41:32 AM): thats whats messed up

Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:47:49 AM): LOL dude the first thing she asked me when I told her we're engaged is "OMG ARE YOU PREGNANT!?
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:48:04 AM): and I was like "yeah um I'm 15 months along..."
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:48:05 AM): lol
Josh (4/13/2008 11:48:05 AM): wow!!
Josh (4/13/2008 11:48:27 AM): if i can impregnate a girl while on another continent...
Josh (4/13/2008 11:48:34 AM): imagine what other powers i must have
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:48:45 AM): I KNOW! Our kid is gonna be like invinicable!!
Josh (4/13/2008 11:49:09 AM): and he is apparently gonna have a HUGE dick
Josh (4/13/2008 11:49:25 AM): a chip off the old block i must say

Sherie E (4/9/2008 11:26:22 AM): Oh yeah and I told your mom
Josh (4/9/2008 11:26:36 AM): that we are getting married?
Sherie E (4/9/2008 11:26:42 AM): No that there are pigs on the sun
Josh (4/9/2008 11:26:57 AM): wouldnt that make them bacon?

Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:34:11 AM): My mom is going with me so she can tell the dr I've "Lost my mind"
Josh (4/11/2008 11:34:35 AM): well, realistically, what is the doctor going to do
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:34:40 AM): So I am wearing a shirt that says "Sanity is overrated" lol
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:34:41 AM):
Josh (4/11/2008 11:34:49 AM): she cant throw you in a mental institution
Josh (4/11/2008 11:34:52 AM): lol
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:35:09 AM): Um I dunno this DR might be able to do that...
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:35:15 AM): She's a psychologist... LOLOL
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:35:26 AM): At the most mom will get 72 hours
Josh (4/11/2008 11:35:36 AM): lol, i still doubt she has the authority
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:35:44 AM): So if ya don't hear from me, assume I'm there
Josh (4/11/2008 11:35:50 AM): lol
Sherie E (4/11/2008 11:36:04 AM): And be warned, I'm gonna play it up REAL good too if they do that
Josh (4/11/2008 11:36:25 AM): hahahahaha

Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:31:44 AM): If you want a REALLY good laugh, read the blog I wrote LOL
Josh (4/13/2008 11:31:56 AM): i will
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:32:05 AM): It wrote it at like no shit 8am and I swear to God there are 2 men in white coats lookin' for me...
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:32:11 AM): *I wrote
Josh (4/13/2008 11:32:49 AM): lol, if insomnia is grounds for that then i might as well be institutionalized
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:33:30 AM): See I'm not an insomniac thou, I just start thinkin' about you and then get excited and can't go back to sleep LOL
Josh (4/13/2008 11:33:43 AM): lol
Sherie E (4/13/2008 11:33:46 AM): Like knowing that when you log off your going to sleep, will make it so I can go to sleep LOL
Josh (4/13/2008 11:33:47 AM): i know how you feel

Sherie E (4/5/2008 9:19:07 AM): Baby... did you know your my EVERYTHING
Josh (4/5/2008 9:19:28 AM): yep!
Josh (4/5/2008 9:19:34 AM): wanna know a secret?
Sherie E (4/5/2008 9:19:49 AM): Duh
Josh (4/5/2008 9:19:50 AM): you're mine too!

Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:22:22 AM): I think once they meet you they'll be better
Josh (4/5/2008 11:22:30 AM): maybe
Josh (4/5/2008 11:22:36 AM): or they'll try to kill me
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:22:44 AM): Either or
Josh (4/5/2008 11:22:57 AM): i may have to turn down the sarcasm when i meet them
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:23:05 AM): With my mom, yes, dad, no
Josh (4/5/2008 11:23:14 AM): ahhh, sweet
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:23:23 AM): My mom has *NO* sence of humor at all
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:23:25 AM): ZERO
Josh (4/5/2008 11:23:50 AM): damnit!
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:23:52 AM): I know
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:23:58 AM): Imagine living with it
Josh (4/5/2008 11:24:05 AM): i couldnt do it
Josh (4/5/2008 11:24:16 AM): she would have poisoned me years ago
Sherie E (4/5/2008 11:24:25 AM): She tried to with me once
Josh (4/5/2008 11:24:51 AM): as strange as it is given my proffession, i have a natural resistance mechanism for authority

Sherie E (4/4/2008 11:30:13 AM): hehe you look adorable
Josh (4/4/2008 11:30:46 AM): you are the adorable one my dear, and the brains
Sherie E (4/4/2008 12:07:35 PM): *love you
Josh (4/4/2008 12:07:57 PM): and i love you, more than anything else i love you, nothing will ever change that
Sherie E (4/4/2008 12:08:08 PM): <3
Sherie E (4/4/2008 12:08:17 PM): I'm so lucky to have you
Josh (4/4/2008 12:08:29 PM): i think i'm the lucky one

Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:55:15 AM): So... I read your blog at about um 3am... very hateful my love heheeh
Josh (4/3/2008 10:55:30 AM): yeah, i was angry
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:55:48 AM): Whats "Putting a Tucker" LOL
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:55:51 AM): *Pulling
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:55:58 AM): It made me giggle
Josh (4/3/2008 10:56:38 AM): i like to refer to it as complete and purposely brutal honesty coupled with burning sarcasm
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:56:49 AM):
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:56:51 AM): I like it
Josh (4/3/2008 10:57:08 AM): its kinda rare but it happens
Josh (4/3/2008 10:57:42 AM): basically when you talk down to someone to the point where they want to run and hide and cry
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:58:28 AM): Well I know I'll never have it done to me so I can laugh when ya do it to someone else
Sherie E (4/3/2008 10:58:39 AM): Can ya teach me?!
Josh (4/3/2008 10:58:52 AM): hehe, if you take my name you are thereby free to do it to others at will

Josh (3/26/2008 5:38:40 PM): i can say with all certainty...
Josh (3/26/2008 5:39:06 PM): you are one of the most beautiful girls ive ever seen
Sherie E (3/30/2008 3:41:11 PM): Did you see me kiss ya?!
Josh (3/30/2008 3:41:21 PM): mmhmm, i did
Josh (3/30/2008 3:41:40 PM): did you see mine?
Sherie E (3/30/2008 3:41:45 PM): Yesssss
Sherie E (3/30/2008 3:41:51 PM): isthe guy next to you laughing again?
Josh (3/30/2008 3:42:09 PM): no, im holding my gun on him under the camera
Josh (3/30/2008 3:42:14 PM): hehehehe
Sherie E (3/30/2008 3:42:14 PM): HAHAH

Sherie E (4/1/2008 1:42:39 PM): I've had my period since I was 14 and I've *NEVER* heard of a luteal phase
Sherie E (4/1/2008 1:43:22 PM): The Luteal Phase is the time period beginning with the day after ovulation and running through the remainder of your menstrual cycle (ends the day before your next period).
Sherie E (4/1/2008 1:43:34 PM): How the fuck should I know when I ovulate!?
Josh (4/1/2008 1:43:42 PM): lol, who knows
Josh (4/1/2008 1:44:02 PM): i have limited experience with your mysterious lady parts
Josh (4/1/2008 1:44:30 PM): i know where the important parts are

Josh (4/2/2008 9:55:12 AM): i love you so much baby
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:55:17 AM): I love you too
Josh (4/2/2008 9:55:44 AM): you look like you need to sleep desperately
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:55:58 AM): I have later and tommrow and the rest of my life
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:05 AM): lol
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:56:13 AM): But right now I have you <3
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:18 AM): you know what the amazing thing is
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:31 AM): you're still the most beautiful thing ive ever seen
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:56:43 AM): I love you
Josh (4/2/2008 9:56:49 AM): i love you too baby

Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:57:30 AM): Seriously, I'm *SO* excited we get Ranger you don't even know
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:57:40 AM): Now I get my 2 fave boys in 1 place lol
Josh (4/2/2008 9:57:40 AM): lol, awesome
Josh (4/2/2008 9:57:52 AM): hopefully him and my puppy will get along
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:57:57 AM): What puppy?
Josh (4/2/2008 9:58:08 AM): im getting a puppy
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:58:24 AM): And where you going to ask me...
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:58:26 AM): Or tell me? lol
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:58:36 AM): Wow that was very... wifey of me to say
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:58:37 AM): LOL
Josh (4/2/2008 9:58:52 AM): lol, well, if the shoe fits
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:59:07 AM): Ranger kinda sorta hates puppies LOL
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:59:21 AM): With a passion
Josh (4/2/2008 9:59:24 AM): lol, i was thinking about getting a black lab
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:59:46 AM): Hunny... ya gotta change that I word
Sherie E (4/2/2008 9:59:55 AM): Theres no more I... its us and we
Josh (4/2/2008 10:00:08 AM): true
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:00:20 AM): And I've never been much of a team player but I'm up for this one hehe
Josh (4/2/2008 10:00:32 AM): we were thinking about getting a black lab
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:00:40 AM): NO I WASN"T lol
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:00:44 AM): Don't put WORDS IN MY MOUTH
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:00:45 AM): LOLOL
Josh (4/2/2008 10:00:47 AM): lol, thats not fair
Josh (4/2/2008 10:01:02 AM): how come you get to use i but i dint get to use i
Josh (4/2/2008 10:01:10 AM): hehehehe
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:01:21 AM): "I was thinking WE could get a black lab"
Josh (4/2/2008 10:01:37 AM): damn vernacular
Josh (4/2/2008 10:01:46 AM): lol, ok
Josh (4/2/2008 10:01:58 AM): i was thinking we could get a black lab?
Sherie E (4/2/2008 10:02:06 AM): Good job but no

Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:26:45 PM): I love you more then my life baby
Josh (4/2/2008 2:27:13 PM): to me baby, you are my life
Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:27:17 PM): <3
Josh (4/2/2008 2:27:39 PM): im here for you, and you alone
Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:27:49 PM): That means the world to me
Josh (4/2/2008 2:28:01 PM): its that right there that i live for
Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:29:24 PM): God I just wanna touch you
Josh (4/2/2008 2:30:03 PM): i know baby, nothing would make me happier
Sherie E (4/2/2008 2:30:38 PM): What are oyou thinking?
Josh (4/2/2008 2:31:21 PM): im thinking about how beautiful you are going to look, exhausted, sitting there holding my child

Josh (3/28/2008 1:59:39 PM): and dont worry about misty, to be honest i probably could have handled that a bit better
Sherie E (3/28/2008 2:00:52 PM): What do you mean
Josh (3/28/2008 2:01:23 PM): i kinda flew off the handle, said some things that probably didnt help the situation, but oh well, shit happens
Sherie E (3/28/2008 2:01:38 PM): Do tell I like gossup
Sherie E (3/28/2008 2:01:39 PM):
Josh (3/28/2008 2:02:45 PM): lol, she got all pissed off, so i asked her what the fuck she wanted me to do, she just kind of blew me off, so i responded to that with a resounding fuck you
Sherie E (3/28/2008 2:03:15 PM): Well don't bother saying fuck you to me cuz i'll respond happily with "OK" as I strip
Josh (3/28/2008 2:03:24 PM): lol

<3 the little things <3
Current mood: Description: loved
Baby its the little things
That make me smile so wide
Hearing my cellphone beep
Opening it to find a love filled text from you
The little random phones
"Baby I love you" in the middle of the night
Not because its daytime there
but because you just wanted me to know
Sometimes I don't hear from you
and my heart starts to beat fast
I panic and worry
but that feeling never lasts
because then I remind myself
all I gotta do
Is pick up my cell phone,
hit send and then talk to you
another awesome thing
Is your number shows up when you call
Finally you have your own ring tone
and a picture ID as well
Baby its amazing..
To know your safe and home
To know its only land between us
not an ocean anymore
To know that if I needed to
I could fly right there to you
Baby your my hero
After 15 months away
The feeling that I got when I heard your voice
and knew you were home to stay
was something I just can't discribe
I wish I could bottle it up
It could erase all the sadness in this world
It was that earthmoving and strong
Seriously its the little things
Like knowing the sun is shining for us at the same time
that makes my day go smoother
Calms my nerves
and makes me smile <3

I love you Josh. welcome home baby. THEY CAN"T HAVE YOU BACK lol

walkin' on sunshine <3
Current mood: Description: blissful
Having Josh home is so amazing.
We had a rough start... but now its just... perfect...
I mean I can CALL HIM lol (Yes its the *LITTLE* things in life that get me off)
When I least expect it I get cute little texts from him telling me he loves me :D
I don't have to fear when I phone rings and its an unknown caller then something happened to him
He is safe. Home. and mine <3 <3 <3
I swear sometimes I have to pinch myself cuz its just too amazing to comprehend...
I love you Josh <3

Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I feel like I'm the worst fiancee in the world... Josh is gonna be landing soon and I should be out there ready to take him home with me... but NOOOO the stupid army changed their plans and I cancelled my ticket and now I'm sitting here instead of waiting for him...
I just love him *SO* much and I know he knows it... I hope he knows that if I could, I would be out there in a SECOND...
I've been like no joke *SOBBING* over this about how guilty I feel and how I know in my heart I should just say fuck the money and fly out there... but I can't cuz I know we need stuff for the house and the wedding and everything :( :( :(
I miss him so effing much and love him more then my life... baby... I'm sorry :(
Longest day EVER
This is the longest day of my LIFE!

The seconds feel like hours
the minutes feel like days
All leading up to
your finally being home to stay
I sit and watch the clock
I swear its moving backwards
Look up at the sky
and wonder were your at
I know its only a little while longer
But damn its going so slow
I would do anything to be there right now
Be able to hold you when you land
I feel like a terriable girlfriend
but I know this is for the best
Soon we'll be together
and all this will be in the past
As I sit here right now
My heart is beginning to break
It kills me that your all alone
Out there after such a long time
I would do anything to be there
Kiss you
Touch you
Run into your arms
Yet like I said I know its soon
Soon we'll be together as one
Just I"ll just sit here
and wipe away my tears
Till the phone rings and
you till me your home

Josh, I love you so much... you know I wanna be in WA right now more then anything and you know if I could I would be... I miss you so much baby your my everything... I can't wait to be your wife <3 \\\

Sunday, April 20, 2008
Mins feel like hours while I sit and wait for him...
So today I went to try on wedding gowns at David's Bridal with my mom and grandma (Pictures in the album) It was great because it ment I'm one step closer to being Josh's wife but at the same time I couldn't stop to enjoy it because I'm too worried about where he is and when he's gonna call...
I live with a cellphone attached to me like another body part... I just want him home and safe and in my arms already... this is the longest I've ever gone without talking to him and it's slowly killing me...
I miss him in ways I never thought I could miss someone... and I can't wait for the day I can be with him every day...
I'm sitting here watching Army Wives right now and I'm crying for Pam as she watches Chase walk away (The 4th of July eppie when Delta Force is deployed to Iraq to look for the helo that crashed) and I wonder if thats going to be me one day... no goodbyes, no nothing... just poof and he's gone...
I know Josh has always wanted to go SF and he said he wouldn't go if I don't want him to but I feel like if I say no he'll resent me forever... he said he understands because he'd be gone so much and miss our children growing up and what not but like.. I want him happy at the same time...
When he gets back from Afghan he wants to take a AirAssult class and asked me if it was ok... part of me was like "NO BABY DON'T GO DON'T LEAVE ME AGAIN!!!" but the other part was like "If he wants it, you can't hold him back..." so I said yes... and I'm so scared that this is the start down the slippery slope that is Special Forces... I hope and pray he doesn't go that route...
I just want a normal life... or as normal of a life as I could have marrying a soldier... I know that he loves me and I know I love him and no matter where in the world we are I know we can both feel that love... I feel him all around me... I just don't want him to be gone more then he has to be...
I have class tommrow and I have *NO* idea how I'm gonna make it thru... Normally Josh calls me in the middle of class and its an excuse for me to get out for a bit but tommrow I know my phone won't ring.. that call isn't gonna come no matter how much I wish for it... and that makes me sad :(  I see happy couples are all around and I just wanna be like GET A ROOM! We know your happy don't rub it in that your man is here and mine is God knows where getting shot at every day!
I just want my phone to ring and to have him be on the other line...
When he called me on Friday night to tell me he was coming home he told me the next time I heard from him he'd be boots on ground in the states... I'm ready for that call... I'm ready to be told I can get on a plane and fly to my hero... finally have him in my arms and not have to let go EVER...
I'm planning this wedding and I'm so confused... I'm trying to pick things I know he'll like but I want so badly to be able to look over and say "Hunny, what do you think of this" or "Baby, which one should I pick" I feel like only half a person without him and I can't funtion like this...
Sometimes I wonder if he misses me like I miss him... if he's sitting on the plane thinkin' about me like I lay in bed all day and think about him... wishing his arms were around me and my head was on his chest... counting down the seconds til we're together...
I'm gonna go pop some advil PM (HA I found more!) and go to bed then go to class tommrow, come home and pop 2 more advils and sleep thru til Tuesday night when my heart will be whole and my life complete...

Josh~ I know your not gonna read this for a while but I want you to know not a second goes by that your not on my mind that I don't wonder where you are or what your doing... I'm gonna go upstairs and write in the notebook while I wait for my pills to take effect... I love you so much baby and I'm *SO* ready to be your wife <3

HES COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current mood: Description: giddy
OMG JOSH JUST CALLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HES COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LIKE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHH OMG I think I'm gonna explode with happiness :D :D :D :D

Today started out SO effing sucky... I got my period, had cramps like you wouldn't believe, didn't hear from him ALL effing day and wasn't too friendly to my famiy because of that fact  butwhen my phone rang at 1am and it was him...  like 4 simple words fixed EVERYTHING "Baby I'm coming home" I can honestly say those are the 4 most beautiful words Josh has *EVER* said to me (And believe me, as nasty as he is to everyone else, he says a LOT of sweet loving caring things to me and thats why I loveeeeeeeeeeee him :D)

Thursday, April 17, 2008
So close... so so SO close...
Current mood: Description: sleepy
God I am so effing ready for Josh to be home...Its getting *SO* annoying to have people keep acting like they "Know whats best" for me and him...
Like today, my fuckin' aunt comes over and tries to convince me that I shouldn't go and I kinda Yesed her to death and in the back of my mind I was like WTF EVERRRRRRRRRRR lol God it was *SO* annoying its like I know whats best for me and the other people who matter at this point are me and Josh
Our happiness is ALL that I care about... And if it comes down to him or them I'm sorry but I'm picking him... Its kinda like if my family really loves me like they say they do, they should realize I am truly happy for the first time in my life and they should WANT me to be happy like this
They shouldn't want to see me depressed and locked in my room wearing black and playing "You oughta Know" by Alansis Morrset 24/7 screaming about my hatred of men and how I shoulda became a lesbo when I had the chance...
Josh is my EVERYTHING... the sun in my sky, my air, my heart, my life... I became me the day that I met him... it was like suddenly my world had color... and I never wanna go back to how it was before EVER...
I know people think I'm young and stupid but the way I see it, sure me and him might be young but you only live once and your only young once so lets fuck it up *REAL* good while we got the chance!!
I wanna be able to look at him 50 years from now and say "Baby we made it" I love him and he loves me and thats ALL that matters
And I'm rambleing now in a half asleep fog so me and my advil PM-ed up ass are gonna go drag ourselves up to bed LOL
Josh~ I love you baby... just a few more days... <3


Its offical. I've lost it.
Current mood: Description: crazy
Baby its been 31 hours
since I last heard your voice
I'm slowly going crazy
Seriously I'm losing my mind...
I must really be cracking to write a poem that sucks this much
I think my HS English teacher
would die after I won that writing award...
But I can't go back to sleep
theres nothing on TV
and I just miss you SO damn Much
I sit and look at your pictures
Count down the seconds til I can finally hold you near
Jo told me I should read a book
I laughed and said I did!
I'm totally outta sleepin' pills...
Mom took them away last night
Apperently its bad
To be popin' them day and night
So I'm sitting here awake
at 8:26am you see
Wishing you were here
to go upstairs and get back into bed with me
But God knows if I go up there,
I'll end up running right back down
So worried that I'll miss you
That you'll log in and I won't be around
I bring my cell everywhere
its like its attached to my hip
Seriously the other day I forgot it
and got outta the shower dripping wet
to grab it
JUST in case!
The days are dragging on now
Each one longer then the last
It seems like homecoming is a lifetime away
Like its gonna be forever til I kiss your lips
I dream about you baby
That is when I finally fall alseep
And then when I wake up
It kills me not to have you laying next to me
I have everything all ready
From the flight to the hotel
Ready to be by your side
after this long time apart
I've run out of things to talk about
YAY! Marissa just logged on
so I can complain to her now
that I miss you so effing much
I highly doubt she's gonna care
I think I piss that poor girl off
so I'm just gonna sit here now and wait
For my hero to finally call
So I know that your ok...
I love you Josh so very much
You mean everything to me

Wow... I've lost my mind...
Thursday, April 03, 2008
To my Joshua... I love you...
Current mood: Description: loved
~>I'm here without you baby your your still on my lonely mind I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time<~
No truer line has ever been sung... I'm here alone and my arms ache to hold you and my lips long to kiss you... The days which were once flying by are now long and dragging on... I miss you more each moment but know that as each hour ticks by I am 1 hour closer to you... 1 day closer to having you back here where you belong <3 The only thing that pulls me thru is knowing thart I'm one day closer to being your wife...
Each moment I'm without you is one too long and when I'm not talking to you I feel like a fish outta water... I feel so alone and so lost until I hear your voice and then its like everything is suddenly crystal clear and I can breathe again... You are the most amazing man I've ever met and I am SO blessed to be able to call you my hero and my fiancee
I look at you and I see my dreams, My future, my love, my husband, my soul, my partner, my friend, my hero <3
I see everything I could ever want and more in your eyes and in your arms is where I belong and where I long to stay for ever...
In the coming days your tour of duty will finally at long last come to an end and back me you'll head... back to the real world... back where you belong
And then you'll come here and we'll be married... made to be one, not that it matter to me because I already know I'm your wife in my heart... your the only person who's ever made my heart beat faster and slower at the same time <3
There are very few people I would camp out in front of a computer ALL night long for and boy, your one of them... prob the only one to be honest because I would stay up for days just to hear you tell me you love me JUST ONCE I would give up all my tommrow alone for one today with you...
I love you baby and I miss you and I'm waiting for your safe return to the states and to our new home together
Your Future Wife

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