Sunday, September 9, 2012

Homecoming/Block Leave 2011

Josh returned home on April 25,2011... it was perfect <3



He worked for about 2 weeks, did SRP and then signed out on Block Leave. That trip became the trip dreams are made of...

We didn't plan to do anything at first and then suddenly when he signed out we decided we had to do SOMETHING so we went to CheapSeats.com and looked for flights outta the US that were affordable and ended up booking a trip to Jamaica at an all inclusive resort... it was amazing... the Country was beautiful and the people friendly and Josh was calmer then I've ever seen him more relaxed then he has ever been before or since...

We stayed in Montigo Bay for 5 nights then spent 7 days in Disney World and then 5 days in Las Vegas it was a wild trip and we both agree it was fun to do once but its not something we ever see ourselves doing again





Right before we left for Jamaica Josh went to his doctor and told him about the mood issues he was having the Dr wrote out an Rx and told him to start it ASAP.... he started it while we were in Jamaica and the side effects were horrible... He freaked out in the middle of the night and I couldn't calm him down... I ended up grabbing him and pulling him out of our room onto the beach and pushing him into the ocean to wake him up... While we were in Vegas visiting his family, we tried so hard to pretend everything was on I made excuses for why he was up in the room the whole time why he didn't want to talk to anyone why he was nasty when he did talk... I hate lying...



When he got home, the symptoms were still there and we both knew it... We pretended they weren't but we knew they were...

He put on a strong face at work and acted like everything was fine... He took extra shifts, spent a ton of time working, trying to show everyone he was fine and he would make a good NCO in hopes they would recommend him for promotion when he got to Ft Myer...

He was having nightmares and panic attacks daily, worse when he was stressed...

But we lied... We hid... We tried to keep it all a secret... We tried to protect ourselves and believed we just had to make it the PCS... We just had to make it to July...


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